Monday, September 29, 2008

4 Days to the Big Day

Only 4 days to go until our biggest event of the year! Can you imagine that is finally here? I can't really. I know I talked about this before in reference to the date auction, but after all this time and work, it is hard to imagine that the event is now only a couple of days away. It has been literally nine months of planning, organizing, getting donations, sponsors, special guests, musicians, balloons, our song, calendar, attendees (still greatly needed!) and everything else that went into it. It is a milestone event for Project Smile and me personally- I don't mean to brag, but I was able to get auction items that last year I only dreamed I could get. Last year, we had 41 items, this year, we have over 100. It has been a lot of time and effort and now it just needs to be a success. I'm so anxious, I can't even begin to explain.

The anxiety isn't simply about getting a lot of people to the event- it goes beyond that to the financial pressures we face. Our fundraising abilities are a little unclear right now, particularly due to the economic situation that we are all facing. When the money dries up for individuals and businesses, the effects on us are obvious and immediate- there are no grants, there are no donations. I already keep costs to the absolute minimum- I've been doing that since day 1, but that is not sufficient. We need money coming in at a fairly constant rate. So this event needs be successful to keep us on track for the remainder of the year and to make up for the donations that I already know we aren't going to be able to get. So basically, I'm extra worried for Friday. The one good news is that the Sox game isn't starting until 10pm, so people can enjoy our event without worrying about missing the game.

Tonight, I was working on bid sheets for the auction items. Lisa and Amy were working on some last week when they were helping, but there are still a lot to do. It is kind of fun actually- I enjoy looking at the items and pretending which ones I would bid on if I had money or could actually bid on things. I was also able to clear a space in the office which was a good feeling- never mind the fact the boxes with the auction items are now stacked in front of the couch, thereby creating a wonderful obstacle course, I can see carpet that I haven't seen in 6 months!

Someone made a flip remark to me recently about how I shouldn't take it personally when certain people don't attend our events or donate. Now, I don't expect everyone to attend and I surely don't expect every business to donate and of course there are legitimate reasons that people can't attend, however, it is personal. Now, I never take anything for granted, particularly in terms of Project Smile and I appreciate everyone that supports what I do. I remember what it was like when we had nothing and those feelings make you very grateful every time you have money to deposit in the bank and every time someone shows up at your event. But I absolutely take it personally when people are not supportive. I remember the businesses that ignore our requests and I try to avoid spending money there as much as possible and I remember the people that don't help- particularly those who are in a position that they could help significantly if they wanted to and I really remember those who say they are going to help and do nothing. Everything that happens with Project Smile is deeply personal.

Anyways, enough on that. Sometimes, I'm a slow blogger- it is 12:50 right now and I need to go back and work on my bid sheets. I didn't mean to take this long writing. I do want to go to bed at a decent hour. I wish these butterflies would go away- so many nerves for Friday. I'm doing everything I can to get people there, but I'm so worried that people won't show up and it will be a disappointment and we will be financially derailed and all the time spent will be for nothing. I know- I keep repeating myself and I really don't mean to be so boring. Until tomorrow friends...

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Wednesday Worries

So what's new? Today I was back working on getting people to our anniversary event- that was the primary focus of the day. It is going very slow, I think right now we are up to 50 people who say they are coming. Our goal is 100. It is so stressful. I don't know what else I can do except keep working the phone and sending emails and following up with people. I went to a local networking event tonight, but I don't think it was particularly productive.

It gets a little frustrating when people make unhelpful comments, particularly about getting people to the event. One woman who I told about our event shook her head when I told her the ticket price (it was too low), then on the other end, I hear comments that people aren't going to come to my event because the economy is so bad and people can't afford anything. Then I've heard other comments that the Red Sox playoff game will be on, so people won't show. Then the really helpful comment that Fridays are bad nights for people since they already have plans. I know one should just ignore comments like those, but when you're working really hard to make something successful, you just don't need the unhelpful remarks. I can't control the economy, I can't control the Red Sox play off schedule (however, I did make the event early, so people can come to my event then go home and watch the game since they don't start until 8pm), I made our ticket price as low as possible in order not to put a financial burden on people and the fact is that people can come for free- the invite says $10 donation appreciated. Most of our auction items are on the lower end, so it is more affordable. Is there really a good night for people? I chose a Friday night because last year people said that a Friday would be better because they really don't usually go out on a work night.

I know I shouldn't even be paying attention to those comments- it's just that I'm already super worried about attendance and I am so tired. I always appreciate suggestions on how to do things better, but comments on things I can't control, or just plain negative remarks are really unncecessary, particularly commenting on a ticket price that is already set and trying to suggest i don't know what I'm doing.

In other news- I was working on the halloween event too. Our flyer is approved for distribution which is great. I also need a lot more event volunteers. The group from U-Mass Lowell isn't coming back, so I need to find a replacement. We are supposed to be having a group of Best Buy volunteers coming to help, but I'm not entirely sure if they are coming and I still need more anyways. I did buy the cutest Halloween outfit last week to wear to the event- even better than my devil angel outfit last year.

Tomorrow, I need to get all the final program info to Lisa so we can get the anniv program finished. I'm also meeting with the guy who has volunteered to bring his company's LCD projector to our event and will help out as well- that is really great because they are incredibly expensive to buy and cost $150 to rent for the night which is a giant waste. It is wonderful when people see you have a problem and offer to help without even being asked. It doesn't happen very often, so I really appreciate when it does. I'm also back to work on getting people to the event- I don't want to stay out of the office for very long, because I have a lot of people to reach.

Well, that's it for tonight. I'm tired- i fell asleep for a couple of hours tonight and now I feel like I'm in a mini stupor. I really feel like popcorn- I know that's completely random, but really feel like some. I won't though- it's too late to eat anymore and I should just go back to bed. Wish me luck in my efforts to get people to the event- I need a lucky angel on my shoulder for this one. Until tomorrow friends...

Update

Well, it is 12:24 right now and my goal is to be in bed by 12:50, so this is going to be a fast blog! I didn't want to go to bed without blogging- not that I have anything of any great importance to share, but it didn't feel right. So what's new? I was following up with people I invited to the anniversary event and inviting more people- that took a lot of time and I still have a ton more people to contact. It is going really slowly with getting people to commit to attending- I haven't reached panic mode yet, but I'm heading that way. Which reminds me, I need to follow up with some other auction items that have been promised but not yet received.

I was also finishing up with date auction things- I can't put the file away yet, because there are still silent auction items that haven't been paid for yet (I still have the items). Some people are really slow in getting back to me. I know that people are busy, but one would figure that if you bid on an auction item, that means you want it and will make arrangements to pay for it- soon. This is not necessarily true. If I don't hear back from some of these people, I will put the auction item in next week's event, because I don't want to be stuck with auction items.

In other news, I finished my second powerpoint presentation! Congratulations to me! It is a photo slideshow of the 2009 calendar photos- I think it looks really good. That is going to play during the event on a continuous loop- it has about 75 photos in it, each showing for 3 seconds.

I can't remember what else happened today. I wasn't feeling very good this morning and overslept and I haven't exercised in 4 days which doesn't help. I'm just really tired and really worried about next Friday. I know it must be boring to keep reading about how worried I am, but it is true. Success with the date auction has nothing to do with the anniversary event. It could be a wonderful event, but without people there it is a disaster.

Anyways, I need to sleep. Tomorrow morning I will be back to work on getting people to the event. I was also working on Halloween event things today and have more to do tomorrow, but the priority is next week's event. There is so much riding on that. Well, it's 12:38- I'm actually on track to be in bed at a decent hour- I didn't go to bed until 2:30 last night- way too late. Until tomorrow friends...

Monday, September 22, 2008

A New Week

It's a new week and we are now only a little over a week away from our Anniversary Celebration. So what does that mean? It means the anxiety level is right back where it was for the date auction, it's just focused on getting people to the anniversary event, which right now, is a huge problem.

However, let's get off that train of thought for a few minutes and get back to the date auction. Good news- the event raised approximately $9,000! I have added the numbers so many times and I still can't believe it is that much. I keep thinking that I made a mistake and I'm over by a few thousand. But I keep coming out at the same number. That is by far, the most money we've raised at an event. I know that compared to what other charities can raise at fundraisers, it's not a lot of money. But for us today, it is huge. In a few years from now, that will be a small fundraiser, but that day has not come yet. I am so glad that I made myself stop and really take in the event, because so much of that night is becoming a blur, but those few minutes where I really looked at everything are not a blur. That night will go down as one of the best nights of my life and I am so proud. It's difficult to explain why it means so much. 4 years ago this month, I was working on our first calendar and we were struggling for our very survival, with less than $2,000 in the bank. A date auction like this was only a distant dream. So when I looked out at the sea of people on Friday, I couldn't help but think of where we've come from and how incredibly beautiful things are when they are going so right. And I was also thinking how important it is to simply hold on and keep working- that those big, wild, slightly arrogant dreams really can come true, just the way you imagine them.

Anyways, I could go on about all that stuff forever. What else is happening? Today, I was working on finishing up date auction things. I spent a good part of Saturday calling silent auction and raffle winners and getting items out. Today, I drove the Air Tran tix up to their owner in Swampscott. Yes, I do realize there is such a thing as mail, but I didn't want them to get lost and I wanted to collect payment, so it was actually easier to drive them up there and get it done, particularly since it was $600. I'm still waiting for payment on other auction items, that is always a bit of a hassle. I've contacted everyone who participated and thanked them, filed receipts and other forms, have a few extra items to return to stores and more data from guests to be entered into Excel, but then we can close the book on the date auction until January. It's actually kind of funny not to have to think about the date auction anymore. It's been on my daily list pretty much every day since January. I don't really miss it, but it does feel a little strange.

Tomorrow, I'm back to work on anniversary event and a major push to get people to attend. It is an awesome event and really deserves a good turnout. Or, to put it bluntly- we need a lot of people to fill the room and raise a lot of money and sell many calendars. It is so difficult to get people to attend, it is very frustrating. Good news though- a really nice person has reached out and offered to help by letting us borrow his LCD projector for the event and also offered to help with his techie knowledge. I must have sounded quite pathetic in those blogs! So I am really happy about that because projectors cost a fortune to buy and are very expensive to rent as well. And, I also need someone there who can work the freakin thing at the event. Which reminds me, powerpoint experience #2 is coming up- Lisa sent me back the photo disks and I want to create a slideshow of the calendar photos to play at the event. Such creativity!

OK, it is now 1:06- was planning to have some yogurt, but think I will write my list (which is basically all about the anniv. event) and go to bed. I'm also trying to figure out why I have such a pain in my left hand and elbow- it just started tonight. I did feel pretty lousy all day, but not sick. I didn't even exercise this morning- must exercise tomorrow.

Enough rambling- I know I'm rambling when I start talking about exercise. The other thing that I forgot to mention when I was watching the date auction- I felt really lucky. Lucky that I get to have a job that I love and lucky that I get to enjoy these wonderful moments and when I saw my friends that came and my sister and her friends that helped, I felt lucky that I have people in my life that believe in what I do and really make an effort to be there. I had a scary experience a few weeks ago on a date and although I ended up being fine, it was a reminder of how quickly things can go horribly wrong and how easily it can end. In those moments, when I was so afraid that something was going to happen to me, I thought of my family and I thought of Project Smile and how there was so much more I needed to do. So, I do feel lucky when the good times are here. Until next time friends...

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Success!

Success!!! Tonight was everything I dreamed it would be. For these last nine months, when I closed my eyes and imagined what our date auction would be like- tonight was what I saw. First of all, I want to thank everyone who made it a success- from the people that sponsored, those helped recruit people to auction off, people that volunteered to be auctioned off, donated auction items, brought in sponsors, helped promote our event, the radio hosts for doing an incredible job, the people that attended, people that made donations, our great volunteers we had- everyone who participated- thank you so much. I never took any of it for granted and I so appreciate everyone who supported our event and I am so grateful.

I made sure to take a few minutes tonight and actually, really look at what was going on around me- look at all the people, everyone having a good time, donations being made- I wanted to take it all in and remember everything, enjoy the moment. It is an evening that I will hold onto forever, particularly when the dark days come. It was a dream that came true and how often do dreams come true the way you think they will? I'm so happy and relieved and grateful to everyone who made it possible- I really can't say that enough.

So how much did we bring? I'm not totally sure yet, it is approximately $7,000, but that is not a final number- so please don't quote me on that number. I need to go through everything again in the morning. I'm too tired right now to concentrate. The main thing is that everything is home safely and the credit cards were processed.

There is so much more to talk about from the date auction. I'm going to put some of my photos on the blog soon too. I'm so happy- honestly, I could cry. I worked so hard, worried so incredibly much, was so nervous about having a disaster on my hands and causing harm to Project Smile and afraid of not being able to justify all this time that was spent, but it's all good- it was worth it.

Well, I am off to bed- actually going to have a yogurt, watch more of What Not to Wear re-run and then sleep. Tomorrow, I'll sort out the revenue and enjoy the rest of the day, then it is back to work on the next event, the anniversary celebration. Thank you again to everyone who made tonight a success, it means so much to me personally and it was a big help for Project Smile, because we need the financial support drastically.
Good night friends- and it really is a good night!

Hours Away

Well, here we are- only hours away from the date auction. Nine months of work all comes down to 2 1/2 hours tomorrow. It doesn't seem real in a certain way that it is actually almost here- for so long it seemed so far away- I've worked so hard, I can't believe it is all coming down to what happens for a few hours tomorrow night. Part of me feels strangely calm, but I'm also as nervous as heck. I've tried to think of everything possible for tomorrow so that our event runs smoothly, I still have a couple of little things to do tonight, but I don't think I'm forgetting anything. We've exceeded our goal for advanced ticket sales which is good, but we do need a lot of door sales tomorrow. None of the bachelors/ettes have cancelled, our program is printed and looks awesome, the cc machine is running, I have plenty of small bills for change, gift certificates for every couple, extension cords, lamps, raffle tickets, guest list, volunteer list- I don't think I'm missing anything. One of the most important things tomorrow is to stay calm- no matter what happens, what goes wrong, as the leader, it is my responsibility not to get flustered and to keep things running smoothly.

I don't know what else to write about tonight- I had a busy day getting things organized for tomorrow, I picked up our sports items in Braintree and also stopped at Konditor Meister (the best cake place ever!) to order our Anniversary Celebration cake and then came back to work. I really am nervous for tomorrow- my face feels like its burning up. I just want things to be OK- obviously I want things to be better than OK, but I want it to go smoothly, for everything to work as it should, people to show up, donations to be made- we need this to be a success so badly. Whatever happens tomorrow, I am proud of all the work that went into it and I know that I did everything I could to plan a successful event, but that doesn't make me worry any less.

Well, since I don't have anything original to write about it tonight- I'm going to go finish up a few things, repaint my toes (must have pretty toes for tomorrow night), try on my dress to make sure I actually want to wear it (I am getting auctioned off after all!) and then bed at a decent hour.
Please wish me luck friends.... I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Calendar is Ready!

Good news today- I picked up our Project Smile calendars today and they look awesome! The print quality is fantastic- photos look great. The printer, Peacock Press in Rockland does such a good job. I always like the calendar, but this one is particularly good. All the calendar work is finally done, now the really hard part starts, selling all 1000 of them. However, it is a big help to have a really good product to sell.

So what else is new? The butterflies are ever increasing- honestly, I feel like I have a permanent stomach ache to go along with the tight chest (no, I'm not sick). I haven't exercised in 2 days which doesn't help either. Things are going pretty well for the date auction actually- we've reached our goal today for the number of advanced tickets sold, so that is good news. According to my last count, we are all set for gift certificates- I have to recount in case I missed something. I've been working on all the small things that need done for the event, there is still quite a lot to do. Yelp.com did an awesome feature on the date auction in their weekly email newsletter. I'm going to keep working on promoting the event.

Things are on the right track, so I really shouldn't be such a bundle of nerves, but I am. I'm worried that we won't get enough people there, that I will have forgotten something and that will cause a problem for the event, volunteers won't show up, bachelors won't show- you name it, I'm worried about it. I'm trying to think of every possible issue- there is still one issue that I'm trying to resolve so that the event flows smoothly. I did finalized the event map tonight, last night I wrote up the volunteer duties to share with every volunteer at the event, the program is almost all ready. Lisa is making some last minute changes for me, then I can get it printed tomorrow. It is so hard to do all this myself- I don't have anyone to run things by, to make sure that I'm thinking of everything or to help get stuff done. We did get a cool gift certificate donated today for a couple to use on their date- two tickets to a Boston Symphony Orchestra production. It was funny that it arrived today, I think it was March when we contacted them for the first time.

Anyways, I'm going to go eat another pear- I just finished a really good one, watch a bit more of Jay Leno, then back to work to finish up a few things- planning on getting to bed by 1am, so I need to pick up the pace. Until tomorrow friends..